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I've been asked to be on a podcast about X Files, specifically the Darin Morgan episodes. At first I thought this would be easy as episodes like Clive Bruckman's Final Repose, Humbug and Jose Chung are some of my favorite episodes of TV ever. For some reason I was also asked to watch David Harbor's Frankenstein's Monster's Monster, Frankenstein in preparation for the podcast.

Then I went to did my research and realized that Darin Morgan also did the episode of TV that made me cancel Netflix, stop watching tv and get into audio dramas instead. That episode was sort of a 'straw that broke the camel's back' situation, but still it was that episode. I was sick of getting into a show and then, over it's long run, the show doing something shitty like being homophobic or transphobic.

I don't know if we'll really get into this episode or how the podcast will go in general. But, if we do someone might ask me the question 'is this episode really transphobic?' If they do I will need a well reasoned response. Hopefully, we'll just take that as read and skip to his season 11 episode where the villain is named checks notes Dr. Q. They. WTF Darin, issues much?

Since I am analyzing this pile of personal issues masquerading as a plotline, I am also going to put my thoughts here. Maybe writing them out will help me get them settled in my mind.

( What a man says in jest often lies close to the truth. CW: Long form and in depth discussion of transphobia. )

And, in other news

My physical therapy is doing great things for my back, but my back is also now very, very sore and tired.

I've had my next appointment pushed out yet another week so I can't check in with my doctor about what I should be doing about this. I am pretty sure the tiredness and soreness are good, it's muscles that weren't engaging properly now pulling their weight so my back can work right. They just aren't used to it and are getting worn out. I am taking anti-inflammatories and took a long epsom soak last night and it did help, but also I kinda just want to lay on my back for the rest of the day in spine-neutral position.

I am also going on break from the routine I should be doing for a few days. I am not sure if it's the right call, but I just have to go with my best guess.

I watched Detective Pickachu last night and I paused the film 3 times to just lie on the floor because how tired my back felt was distracting me. This is why follow up appointments are a thing!