I walked for 5 hours

I finally got off my butt and photowalked again. Every night for a bit something was going on that got in my way of going on, either other commitments or it being a bad windstorm out. I guess for a while my photowalks weren't quite this long because I am tired. I wound up hanging out on some outdoor seating for a break on my way home.

Also, on my way out I made a detour:



Walk under some dodgy looking stairs into a darkened entrance to buy mead? Don't mind if I do. It's a mead and leather store by day, and a bar and food hall by night. Also the poutine cart in their parking lot can feed my even with my allergies! Life aint all bad sometimes.

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So, I know this is a weird year for it, but I am trying to make Pride not suck for me. I don't want to be the sad, lonely grumpy one while others are having fun. Makes me feel like the Grinch.

I have a little rainbow section in my bujo for each week where I plan to write down things I did that week involving Pride. First week, I had a few small things. This week so far I got nothing (unless I decide to count this post).

The first week, I posted to FB about Pride not ever being good for me and asked for responses about what other people get out of it. Basically, those who enjoy it, how? What? I mostly got people saying they don't engage in Pride or feel good going ... which while not helpful was validating. And, for context, one of the responders runs peer support groups and doesn't go to Pride. It doesn't feel safe to him. Not because of cops or kink or anything, but the overarching LGBTQ+ community itself doesn't feel good or safe to him.

At some point there will be a in-game Pride Parade in GW2. The dates haven't been announced yet, but it's usually in late June and only announced a week beforehand. I'll probably do that when it happens.

I gotta say, and this is purely anecdotal / only representative of the spaces I hang out in, but when I see people being happy that it's Pride month it's because a family member bought them a rainbow insulated coffee mug and they feel all accepted or they are going out with a romantic partner to have dinner in celebration of pride. Family and partners, things that don't exist for me. So, maybe it's just not for me, but I am like trying to find ways to engage in it because I don't like feeling like the grinch.

Maybe next year will go better for Project Made Pride Not Suck For Me.