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I have another fic done for 2018 and hope to finish a few more. I was tempted to delay posting so I could count it toward's next year's goals, but hey my 2018 being in a bit better shape is also good. It's for fandom_stocking so I can't talk about it yet. But writing for this specific canon was an experience. I will be posting about that when I can.

I only have one thing done for fandom_stocking so far. I will hopefully get more done, I usually do 6-12 things for it. But a whole fic isn't bad. Right now I am drained from projects and also setting up new comms here. The comms are all sleepy because that always happens this time of year. Mid-December is the worst time to start any online / social media / fandom project. And holidays are also draining. I'll think about being creative again next week. Maybe I'll watch some TV go for walks and hikes.

Well that was deeply unpleasant

There is group that does evening walks aimed at people who like to hike on weekends. It's supposed to be "a gentle trek providing exercise without a fast pace (and those just starting out)".

Tonight, one of the groups was designated as 'extra slow'. Being my first time, I opted for that. One of the girls wanted to go fast, but joined our group anyway. The group leader kept keeping pace with her. We went at between a power walk to a light jog uphill. Then I saw the sign that said 'elevation 500 feet'. We'd started at sea level. I'd just jogged uphill that much elevation change. I stopped and told them I was tapping out. When you are trying to get back into shape pushing your cardio too much can cause your energy level to tank in a way that it can take weeks to claw your way out of. I told the group to go on. I was going to wander around and take pictures.

They wouldn't. The leader insisted on waiting for me. She kept going "Are you ready yet? Okay we'll wait .... ready?" When I did start walking again they kept jogging ahead, stopping and turning to wait for me, and watching me watch up. I told them I was an adult with a fully charged cell phone in the middle of the city I'd lived in for 20 years. They should just leave me.

In retrospect I should have just started walking in another direction. Actually, in retrospect I am kind of pissed. I only stayed with the group all the way back to the meeting point because I was hoping there would be another leader I could talk to. Ask if I should try again another night or nah.

Arg that was a socially awkward and totally unreasonable situation. One that made me push myself harder than I should have. Hopefully I will be alright and wont have a delayed crash. (That's one of the problems with pushing cardio too hard, you feel fine at the time. Often fine that day, but then in a day or two your system does really badly.)

On paper this group is perfect for me, but I don't know if I want to try again. That was just ... not okay. Dammit, I really want ... what this group claimed to be.