olivermoss | (no subject)

I've not been making my food goals for the past few weeks. Part of it was having a variety of drinks over Escapade weekend.

Part of it is how depressing my grocery store is right now. I've gotten used to it being boarded up, covered in graffiti and weak attempts to hide the graffiti. Since the storms they haven't managed to fully restock, and the patchy shelf coverage on top of all that is getting to me. Going to the grocery store drives home everything going on right now, both large scale problems and local. I make a list before I go, and I am lucky if they have half the things on my list. So, I need to figure out what to buy while in the store. I wind up just buying random things I know I can eat with my food allergies.

The good news is that my weight has been steady, even with all the drinks and the chips. I don't suddenly regain weight eating more casually and doing some social drinking. That is a another strong indicator that if I can get the weight off I can maintain that loss without it being a stress.

I would much rather have lost weight these past few weeks. It's hard to see staying the same as progress, when it really is. My body and brain are both fine with smaller portion sizes. I made myself a 'hotel style breakfasts' for Escapade with eggs, potatoes and ham. Halfway through my body was like 'why are you still eating? That is plenty?'

Buying food from a boarded up building covered in graffiti has become normal to me, but the store's inability to stay stocked is getting to me. Man, life is weird these days.